Continuing the Experiment

Welp, time to start writing stuff. I don't really have an idea, or a direction today, so its time to utilize this blog as I intended: as an experiment, and at raining ground for me, and for my writing. I'll continue to write until the timer beeps, which will be in 19 minutes now. It'sinteresting whe nyou just let your brain flow like this, and write whatever you feel, sometimes you come into some ideas that you never though you could even come up with. Sometimes, you write total bullshit for 20 minutes and feel worse than when you started. Sometimes, you think its total bullshit, and people love it, and then you're more confused and upset about it than if it wasn't popular at all. It all really makes no sense. I don't know what particularly to write about though.

I've had a good month away from the working world so far. I've grown a better relationsip with my daughter. This writing experiment has shown me that I could probably write a book if I wanted. Maybe I will. Maybe I'll write one on Libertraianism. Maybe I'll write one on the NSA and its shitty ways. Maybe I'll write a fantasy novel. I don't know. Maybe I'll write a book about my boring, shitty life , and just fill the pages with exerpts from this blog. I don't know. There are so many things I can do right now its really amazing.

That's what a lot of people don't realize when they're unemployed. It offers them incredible opportunities. It gives you the ability to expore new venues, look into new fields, and even start a new business. It gives you the time to refocus on what is most important to you in life. Your family. Your Friends. Your own health. Your education.  It helps you refocus and find a connection with te person you ideally want to be. I can tell you now, I had lost track of that. I had no idea what my direction was except in a blind dash for more money, and more income.  I know one thing that's for sure: I was miserable, and I was making my wife miserable as well. Sophia wasn't benefitting from it either. If I pare down my life to the things that really matter: My health, and my family, I was the poorest man alive at that time. I was squandering two of the biggest assets in my life.

Now I know this. I'm looking for a better life. I'm looking for a job that makes more sense with my family, and my wife's work. I'm helping her deal with the stresses at her job. I'm learning more about my daughter every day I spend playing with her, and I'm learning to love her little quirks, her insecurities, and her quest for knowledge nad independence. I'ts truly wonderful.

I'm realizing that i value my time more dearly than just about any sum of money. I truly, really value being able to rest,to travel, to exercise, to think, to educate myself, and to do it all with some peace and quiet, and with the knowledge that I can do it on my time. It's funny when you think about it: We spend most of our lives giving up mass amounts of time doing things we don't generally enjoy, only so we can save up enough and do stuff we enjoy while we're sick and old. It doesn't make a whole lot of sense. I think as we get closer to a remote work envirronment, and we start to work for ourselves in new exciting ways, this will go away. People will be able to do EXACTLY what they want, and make money at it. I think we're getting closer to that every day. I'm doing...for the most part EXACTLY what I want to be right now: Writing to you, and making exciting small businesses for my wife and I to run. If I can make enough money to live on these endeavors..I've won. I've made myself a system that allows me to live and thrive as I see fit. and I've done it with th ehelp and support of my family. I cannot think of truer wealth than that.

that's ten minutes of writing. I should also say here that for the past week I've been a little down. I've realized that I was hoping to see some more fruition from the youtube channel by now, but that's mostly my fault. I haven't spent as much time as I should have on the video editing, and I've been bad on content creation. I've dedicated myself once again to picking up the pace on that, and I'll continue to make more, new content. Its important, because we're starting to get more fans: and as we get fans they'll hopefully ask their friends to watch and so on. More content will help that. You all know that. I know that. I've been a lazy bum and that won't help me get to where I need to be.

I just deleted a paragraph because it was total bullshit. 5 minutes left. Spring is starting to show its beautiful, fower filled head. in celebration, I've dove headfirst into the Porsche restoration again. I've gotten the filler all over the cracks in the dashboard, and I've started to pull up the rest of the ruined carpet in the interior as well. I just need some help from a welder friend to seal up some holes in the interior, then its reassembly time! Well, not quite: first I'll need to clean an restore both door cards, sand, prime, and paint the dash (or vinyl wrap, we need to see how this new duplicolor textured paint turns out first)  I'll need to measure and tap the new floor hole once I get fresh metal welded in. (oh yea, the previous owner drilled holes THROUGH the floor, apparently this must have been during the great hole tap shortage of 2005)  So there is much to be done. I'm truly excited though. I love building things. I love making things my own. Cars I find are this wonderful cohesion of so many skills, and so many different parts of knowledge and labor, that as you finish you realize that what you have made is a synergy of all of those parts, and all of that work, and you feel as though you've created something bigger than the sum of its parts. It's one of my favorite and most smiple pleasures. I'm glad I've found this joy in life. I love projects. I love taking things and making them my own. I think I will always do that.

So in conclusion: This post is jsut shit I thought about. I like cars, I like spring. I love my family, and I've been a lazy bum about the youtube channel. Sorry Chris.

And to anyone who read this: Congratulations you get a prize. Just leave a comment to collect.